Survive This
Sit comfortably. Close your eyes. Inhale, exhale. Focus on what is happening in every smallest part of your body. Forget for a moment about the worries of the surrounding world. Pay respect to every unconscious process occurring within you since the first breath. Turn your thoughts inward. Stop being who you are for a moment and become the process that led you here. Let go of what constantly absorbs you; work, children, loans, promotion, vacation plans. None of that matters now. Inhale, exhale. Become every tiny molecule that, in its own intelligence, allows you to live. Pause. Feel if you are where you need to be, what bothers you, and what fills you with joy. Realize the things you always run away from to avoid feeling them.
Inhale, exhale. Let’s go deeper.
Let this moment of forgetfulness become your own blessing. The time has come. The time to stop playing a supporting role on your own stage. Feel everything that comes to you, don’t reject, don’t escape. Let every emotion you feel pass through you. Joy, sadness, anger, disappointment, regret, gratitude – it’s all right and it’s all yours. It brought you to the moment where you make the turn. Give yourself permission to be at the center, devote your full attention to yourself. Let your heart, if only for a moment, beat solely for you. Listen to its rhythm.
Inhale, exhale. Flow, feel, don’t analyze or anticipate results. Embark on an inner journey with no defined goal.
You are there, in the full complexity of your existence. Understand that you are the most important person on this planet for yourself. Honor your story, childhood, traumas, parents, friends. Pay tribute to every person who has crossed your path so far. You are a reflection of everything that surrounds you. Inhale, exhale. Start diving into the emotions you feel, become the wide spectrum of what is difficult to express in words. Let go of fear and injustice. They no longer matter. You are turning in a different direction. Let go of everything that no longer serves you, that is not yours and never was. Take responsibility for all your mistakes. Stand in your own strength before your eyes. Look at what was beyond reach until now. Feel fragility and strength at the same time.
Inhale, exhale. The next area to explore is even deeper.
Feel the nakedness, you are discovering your own truth. Expose yourself to the possibility of failure and embrace the potential for success. It’s all happening at the same moment. There is no right choice; every path is valid if you let yourself be guided by what is beyond the comprehension of your mind. Treat the years you’ve lived so far as a reward. The highest form of recognition you can give yourself now is the inner greatness you have the right to feel. Don’t seek confirmation, don’t seek permission or advice. Inhale, exhale. Focus. Everything will be as you want it to be; just allow yourself to finally be on the right path. Feel its taste, smell, sense its shape and form. It’s you, your truth, and destiny, which you will never read about anywhere.
Trust yourself and flow. There is still so much to discover.
No more blaming others, even if they once hurt you. No more excuses and justifications repeated over the years. Never again will this hold you in stagnation, clipping your wings. We received our individual loads of experiences as a test. A test to see how much you care about your happiness and whether you will have the courage to reach for it. Inhale, exhale. Time has ceased to exist, as has the version of you displayed on your ID. The years of shaping and upbringing have just ended. Feel the flow of the river running through you. Let the water wash your hands, now shed everything you no longer want, empty your backpack. Make space for the new, fresh, beautiful, difficult, and yours. Inhale, exhale. Look into your own eyes, accept what you see in them. It’s you and your ancestors. Generations past have allowed you this inner journey. Thank them and yourself for this moment. Thank all the inconveniences that shaped you.
Accept everyone who hurt you. Now stand before them and proudly say goodbye. No one ever asked if you wanted everything that happened in the past, so don’t ask anyone if you can end it. Inhale, exhale.
This is it, your time, your strength, and being. Let it go together with the river of memories, with a light smile, prepare for the ocean of the unknown. It can be anything you want it to be; it has always been within you. The answer to every question is within reach, just grab it. It’s worth it. One last time, inhale, exhale. Open your eyes. Stand up and move towards change. Hug your loved ones. Love with all your heart, there won’t be a second chance. So decide for yourself where to direct your most precious resources; time and energy.
Dance, your stage is ready. The lights are set on you. It’s your turn. Will you dare?
